2017

2017 have been a slightly tough year for me. Several things happened which really changed me a lot and some people left for a better life.

2017 taught me the right way of relying on friends. Im a person who really have insecurities towards friendship. Im afraid of losing people and that is why I tried to be 100% tolerate to all my friends. And that means that I hide all my feelings and thoughts. In 2017 something happened, which I really thought I will lost this group of important ones. But when I started to pray about it, I see how God started to change my mindset. I reveal my real side to them and have the confidence towards our friendship. I wasn't worry that this will push them away but I started to see how our friendship got better and better.

2017 is the year when I sat for my SPM. I was freaking stressed out throughout the year. I was worried about my exam, my result and my future. The laziness in me caused me to only started studying by August, which is like three months before the exam. I experienced how God's grace throughout the preparation for the exam. And now, I just pray that the result which will be released in March will be okay.

In the last month of 2017, I see how God spoke to me about my future that I wasn't sure about it through my prayers, leaders and preachers. He gave me a verse from the bible that has really boosted up my confidence, which is Philippians 1:6 - He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. He also changes the way on how I see the others. I used to only see people's imperfection and forgot about their strength. God started to let me discover the strength of people around me and appreciate all their efforts and sacrifices.

2017 has made someone more important in my life. It has brought me someone who is willing to tolerate with my stubbornness, who is willing to spend time together and also willing to embrace my all of my curves and imperfection. Even thought distance will set us apart soon since we are going for further studies, but we believe that God will bring us through everything. I pray that in April, after settling down in the new environment, we could make our final decision to see if we are going to start off our new journey together in life.

2018, I am looking forward to you and also I pray for more miracles and presence of God.